Mental. It usually hits hardest when you’re alone with your thoughts, thinking about your thoughts. Deep into yourself, it can be hard to get out and see. The things that are important. The things that are outside. The things that maybe matter but really don’t.
And it’s a hard state to get out of.
Sometimes I wish I didn’t have to worry about so many things. About what people think about me. About social media. Sometimes I wish I didn’t care so much about myself. About eating the right foods, exercising everyday, and getting enough sleep. Sometimes I just wish that I didn’t have to care so much about needing to care about things so much. About all the things that are so important.
I just want to be free.
Free to be myself and to love in a way that makes sense. To be part of something bigger, beautiful, and fun. Untethered by the need to be someone or something. I just want to be free to be a part of the world and its peace. To be at peace and content.