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Turning 26

Part of me wants to believe that I’m really not. Mainly, because that same part of me so vividly remembers looking up to seventh and eighth graders in school at the cafeteria during lunch thinking about how old they seemed. Here I am now, twice that age and still feeling like I’m looking up …

It’s crazy to think about how much life I’ve already lived. Sure, it hasn’t been all that much, but to me, it feels like more than I can handle in a moment. Me. Here. Alone. Lying comfortably on my side, staring at the wall, replaying scenes from the distant and not-so-distant past. The little things, the big, and all the in-betweens. Coming together to make the person here today. Right now. In Thailand. Fighting off a sore throat I’m pretty sure I got from biking too much without drinking water. Taking a day to rehydrate and rethink. My life and everything in it. And all the memories that I’ve left out to dry for too long. People have helped to form the greatest parts of me. Friends, family, strangers. Funny thing about Facebook is that despite all the time it sucks out of your life, it somehow always manages to give a portion of it back on your birthday. In the form of small messages. Reminders of previously walked lives. Pictures that have stood the test of time. Comments you never saw coming. I have been so blessed to be a part of many timelines, my own has become an incomplete reflection of self. They contain memories of all the things I’ve done and the people I’ve met along the way. Memories that allow my story to hold water. Memories that give my life a sense of meaning and purpose. Because without memory, I’d be like a bucket full of holes, worthless without anything to draw upon and share. So thank you one and all for everything you’ve contributed to my life. Thank you for being there and for not being there. Thank you for coloring my life so vividly and creating the person here writing this post today. You are loved and greatly appreciated …

So long as the memory of certain beloved friends lives in my heart, I shall say that life is good.

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2 Comments

  1. Sa-Ko

    Belated Happy Birthday Clarence!!! Glad you’re living your life to the fullest and venturing out to the world one day at a time…

  2. Diane LaRochelle

    Happy birthday, Clarence! Thank you for sharing your story with us! It is wonderful to see through your eyes the world you are experiencing. God bless you always!

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