So I just got back from the Apple Store with some bad news … my phone has only a few months left to live. Apparently there has been some internal swelling of the battery that has crept on going unnoticed for awhile now and it has gotten to the point where it is too late to operate. There is no way to save her. The “Genius” at the “Bar” told me that all I can really do is wait.
I remember our first day together almost like yesterday … it was three years, two months, nine days, and eight minutes ago to be exact. It was an unforgettable introduction. We had set off on our “Honeymoon” trip to Korea and Japan together shortly after. Initially, I had purchased the Iphone 5 for communicating via Line and Kakao Talk while abroad and to document photos taken on Instagram. What started as something so innocent and seemingly surface level soon developed into something so much more. It’s hard for me to imagine living a life without her.
A lit screen would be the first thing I looked at in the mornings and the last thing I saw when I drifted off at night. If ever I had a question that needed answering, she was always there to help. Recipe for Thai Curry? Boom. Right there. Updates on Facebook and Instagram likes? She got my back always. I basically relied on her for everything. Sure, I had to check up on her obsessively at all times, but that’s love right? What am I going to do during awkward social situations when she’s gone? How am I going to find the best places to eat? How am I going to get … anywhere? These are serious questions that need answering.
At the same time, I hesitate to find something new. Nothing can replace what we had. Can I, dear reader, figure out a way to live without a smartphone? Is it possible to survive without Safari, Google Maps, Facebook, Instagram, Yelp, Messenger, Pokemon Go, Venmo, Spotify, Soundcloud, Youtube, the list goes on and on. Or should I seek out a new relationship? Would I really be missing all that much? A phone with basic functions could get me through the day without risking too much emotional involvement. Am I being unreasonable in trying to escape the world of unlimited talk, text, and data for something simpler? These are the questions I ask myself as I mindlessly scroll through my endless feed wondering if anyone out there understands my struggle.